AZTEC XOLOTL

Sometimes the beginning is a nexus of many sources.  This beginning is more like an ending, or a coming together.

I'll start with Aesclepios, the God of Healing, or Medicine.  Aesclepios has been active with me again.  As I go through my morning routine, I sit in the Buddha Vortex and begin the process of bringing my energies into alignment with my breathing (Concentration Breath).  This involves entering into a sort of 'journey', or maybe a video game of sorts, in which the vortex opens into a theatre.  I am visited by various deities, spirits, events, whatever.  It all happens in a sort of trance/dream state, and is difficult to remember, especially with my more and more pronounced 'senior moments'.

The other day (yesterday?) Aesclepios took me very deep.  He pushed me deeply into a very intense amethyst light.  As I emerged, he showed me a number of crystals.

He wanted to claim as his the amethyst cluster, and asked me to un-retire my amethyst and quartz meditation crystals.  He also wanted me to bring out and charge a set of crystals recently gifted to me by a friend.  So I set them all in the east window as the sun rose yesterday morning.

Later in the day, I went to Northtown to work on my drawing.  My new friend was there.  Some time ago I wrote that I had been visited by the angel Tzadkiel, in trance, and by a young man at Northtown who had bumped into me at the register.  I could See that this guy was an  angel.  After some time, we became acquainted.  He had bumped into me on purpose, because he could see I was spiritual.  So we began to get acquainted.  He let me know that he was deeply connected to his Native roots.  Yesterday, he asked me how I had experienced the Super Moon of the night before.

"When you look at the moon," he said, "what sort of image do you see?"  I told him I've been focused on the round dot that is so clearly defined.  He linked that to the fact that this month's Full Moon is called the "Hare Moon", and that the five lakes which form the topography of Mexico City are thought to be an image of a Hare, and that Mexico City is seen as the navel of the hare.  It did seem that the round dot could be seen as the navel of the moon.

I went back to my drawing, but was reminded of my work with Marilyn Monroe, when we were journeying to ancient Mexico.  As I went through a series of experiences, I began to call my Shamanic lineage the "XOXOtian" lineage, a play on the 'xo' spellings in the ancient Mayan languages.  For me, the 'XOXO' reminded me of the 'hugs and kisses' glyphs that young girls put on their valentines and notes.  

I asked my friend about that spelling configuration, and what it might mean.  He replied that the ancient deity of the Underworld was named Xolotl.  Xolotl, he said, is a dog.  A small, black dog.

Some months ago, when I finally got Jesus to leave my body, he did so as my Nagual, which is a spirit projection from the loins of the Shaman.  As I sat in the Buddha Vortex, Jesus exited my body through my loins as a dirty little black dog; but he soon morphed into a gigantic Anaconda, and began to roam the world on a killing spree.

Soon after that incident, I was visited in the Buddha Vortex by Quetzalcoatl.  He came to me as a bolt of thunder.  His energy was so intense that he sent Buddha from his perch above me to refuge in my gonads.  Buddha has not re-emerged.  My life began to change.

As I googled Xoxolotl this morning, I found Xolotl, and learned that he is Quetzalcoatl's double.  A year or so ago, as I was wrestling with Jesus, we were fighting to see who would be me.  At a certain point, we couldn't tell the difference between us.  But there is no question: I am me.  I am not Jesus!  At that point, I finally became free from Jesus, at least to a comfortable degree.  Jesus is my double, in Shamanic terms.  Now he is my Nagual.

And so a few days ago, I was visited by JaWa, the Christian God, Jesus' father (Marilyn Monroe used to be the Virgin Mary, Jesus' mother...).  (Jesus calls his father JaWa; Jesus calls me "Bobo")  JaWa was bringing in a spirit guide for a young man here in Yakima.  JaWa called me Bobo.

Does this make any sense?  For some time now the I Ching has been giving me extremely positive forecasts, telling me I've reached a new beginning, have moved into the 'sphere of heaven'.

I think Xolotl, or Xoxolotl, might be the unifying element in a very long Initiation as a Shaman.  I certainly have had a long and deep exposure to the workings of the Underworld.