11.05.12
A few years ago, I caught on to the intent of my spirits
regarding my Initiation as a Shaman.
I was not really intended to become a Shaman as others have been. There was a special agenda for me,
based on an agreement entered into in the years before the Sphinx was
invented. (I was the one who
brought through the design of the Sphinx from the nagual.) I was with my present spirits in this
time in ancient Egypt. In 1989, at
the time of the World Series earthquake in San Francisco, I was guided to
retrieve a large ‘Record Keeper Crystal’
from a collection which ended up in a bookstore in Seattle near my home, when a
woman who owned a shop in Carmel was forced to sell her crystal collection
after the earthquake.
After working with the crystal for years, I was unable to
enter into its energy field with sufficient power to understand its
significance, other than the fact that it had been my crystal in ancient
Egypt. Eventually, my interactions
with my spirit guides, or Allies, led me to discern that this crystal was the
key to my mission in this life, which has been to prepare the way for the
Second Coming of Jesus Christ. As
I learned this, I was aghast.
This was nearly twenty years into my Initiation as a Shaman,
during which nothing had seemed to be going right. As it turned out, I had wasted my life. I was nearly seventy years old, exiled
to a retarded Red State town, far from anything my life had prepared me
for. I was in no way in agreement
with anything I had ever known about Jesus and his religion, let alone the way
he and his cronies had treated me and the people associated with me in this
life. These spirits were evil, in
any way I could look at it. I was
in no way going to lend assistance to His return to the earth, in any role
whatsoever.
The spirits had such control over every aspect of my life
that I had no choice but to engage them in battle at every level I could. This went on for many years, even
before I understood what was going on.
My blogs have reflected this struggle, much to my embarrassment, for
several years.
Recently, I have been having some success. Recent blogs give some details of
this. This success, I believe, is
due to my understanding of the nature of reality.
The world we live in is a world of energy, and energy is one
aspect of Spirit. Energy, and
spirit, are aspects of the Philosopher’s Stone, which the ancients have
identified as the basis of matter.
The Philosopher’s Stone itself, as I learned in a Vision in 1988, is Consciousness. Consciousness is composed of particles,
which the scientists are beginning to isolate, if not to identify. The nature of Consciousness is Change. This is the basis of the wisdom of the
I Ching. Through mastering the
nature of Change, one can rearrange reality. This is the process called Transformation, which is the
basis of the ‘alchemy’ which is at the core of Surrealism.
The essence of the arts of Surrealism is the feat of
Transformation, using the powers inherent in the psyche, as expressed in the
arts of painting and poetry, and is the core of the type of Shamanism I
practice.
The practice of tuning to the changes of the lunar cycle is
a preparation for developing the types of attention necessary to track the
changes inherent in the process of Transformation. Mastery of changes in many subtle arenas is necessary to
engage in the act of transforming an aspect of reality as potent as Jesus.
I have apparently succeeded, at least partially, in
transforming Jesus.
I could not defeat him, at least not permanently, but I have
apparently changed his agenda.
Early on in my Initiation as a Shaman, he showed me a glyph
to represent his Second Coming. It
was a Cross, with two crossbars, the top one slightly shorter than the lower –
a Double Cross. The cross of
Succession. One crossbar atop the
first.
As I discovered his agenda, and realized my opposition to
its success, I was at the same time expanding my powers of awareness through my
own efforts at Shamanic Training, and the invaluable experiences of being of
One Energy with my spirits, or Allies.
Actually being of the same energies as these beings has given me amazing
insights into the nature of reality.
The ability to hold a world of many facets within the
intelligence of my physical body / psyche, and the Medicine Energies of my
apartment, requires an expansion of my spirit. This was accomplished through years of hard work with my
Allies; going to the edges of the physical universe, and to the dawn of time,
and to multiple levels of reality of the world of the present moment (parallel
universes), has expanded my awareness, and my ability to hold this expanded
awareness in the time – space continuum of my physical body.
With this expanded awareness, I have been able to track the
changes in my Allies which resulted from my Despacho Ceremonies, my furies and
rages, my Medicine Work, and other trial-and-error efforts to get rid of them.
As I was able to remove them from my energy field for longer
periods of time, I was able to track the progression of signs as they
re-entered my energies. Each time
was a little different. And so I
began to restructure my responses to their tactics, oddly enough, in ways which
seemed to parallel the ‘teachings’ of the spiritual masters. As I developed a stronger mesh of
“Ayni” (right relationship) in my Medicine Energies, I found that the energies
could support a gentler, more accommodating reaction to their return.
Without the Intent of my own spirit to be totally free from
these intruders, the truisms of the new age teachers were merely hollow
affirmations. It was the
indomitable desire to be Free that allowed me to overcome the will of my
captors. And as I began to
overcome their will, their will began to change.
As noted in recent blogs, my spirits have become much more
accommodating, and much less intrusive on my own energy field, and hence more
and more welcomed by my own spirit.
So far, it seems that the will to freedom is the key. But the key only works in a matrix of
the Medicine Energies, and the expanded awareness of the Shaman.
My drawings are a vehicle for apprehending the changes in my
world and my awareness. Even
though I might start a part of a drawing with a specific intent, my own lack of
skill, and my penchant for the Surrealistic twist, gives each image the chance
to become what it will, outside of or beyond my own understanding and intent.
This morning, while I was sort of ‘noodling’ at my drawing,
at the coffee house, an interesting configuration appeared in one part of the drawing. A tail feather had a sketched-in line
which I unthinkingly doubled. I
had now two long vertical lines, side by side, which I joined near the top with
a crossing line. I now had a
cross, with two uprights, which I saw was an interesting variation on Jesus’
Double Cross.
Two verticals indicated more than one Ascension, rather than
one Ascension repeated. In other
words, no ‘return’; no Second Coming.
Rather, more than one Ascension.
More than one Jesus. This
fit nicely with my quest to develop the inherent qualities of the human energy
field, in order to achieve things in each individual never conceived of in the
Christian theology.
We can change the nature of the world we live in. We don’t have to accept the current
truths. We can discover deeper
realities in our own lives, in the world around us, and in a future which we
can create from the energies we generate from our life-styles.
