JESUS AND THE NATURE OF REALITY

11.05.12

A few years ago, I caught on to the intent of my spirits regarding my Initiation as a Shaman.  I was not really intended to become a Shaman as others have been.  There was a special agenda for me, based on an agreement entered into in the years before the Sphinx was invented.  (I was the one who brought through the design of the Sphinx from the nagual.)  I was with my present spirits in this time in ancient Egypt.  In 1989, at the time of the World Series earthquake in San Francisco, I was guided to retrieve a large ‘Record Keeper Crystal’ from a collection which ended up in a bookstore in Seattle near my home, when a woman who owned a shop in Carmel was forced to sell her crystal collection after the earthquake.

After working with the crystal for years, I was unable to enter into its energy field with sufficient power to understand its significance, other than the fact that it had been my crystal in ancient Egypt.  Eventually, my interactions with my spirit guides, or Allies, led me to discern that this crystal was the key to my mission in this life, which has been to prepare the way for the Second Coming of Jesus Christ.  As I learned this, I was aghast.

This was nearly twenty years into my Initiation as a Shaman, during which nothing had seemed to be going right.  As it turned out, I had wasted my life.  I was nearly seventy years old, exiled to a retarded Red State town, far from anything my life had prepared me for.  I was in no way in agreement with anything I had ever known about Jesus and his religion, let alone the way he and his cronies had treated me and the people associated with me in this life.  These spirits were evil, in any way I could look at it.  I was in no way going to lend assistance to His return to the earth, in any role whatsoever.

The spirits had such control over every aspect of my life that I had no choice but to engage them in battle at every level I could.  This went on for many years, even before I understood what was going on.  My blogs have reflected this struggle, much to my embarrassment, for several years.

Recently, I have been having some success.  Recent blogs give some details of this.  This success, I believe, is due to my understanding of the nature of reality.

The world we live in is a world of energy, and energy is one aspect of Spirit.  Energy, and spirit, are aspects of the Philosopher’s Stone, which the ancients have identified as the basis of matter.  The Philosopher’s Stone itself, as I learned in a Vision in 1988, is Consciousness.  Consciousness is composed of particles, which the scientists are beginning to isolate, if not to identify.  The nature of Consciousness is Change.  This is the basis of the wisdom of the I Ching.  Through mastering the nature of Change, one can rearrange reality.  This is the process called Transformation, which is the basis of the ‘alchemy’ which is at the core of Surrealism. 

The essence of the arts of Surrealism is the feat of Transformation, using the powers inherent in the psyche, as expressed in the arts of painting and poetry, and is the core of the type of Shamanism I practice.

The practice of tuning to the changes of the lunar cycle is a preparation for developing the types of attention necessary to track the changes inherent in the process of Transformation.  Mastery of changes in many subtle arenas is necessary to engage in the act of transforming an aspect of reality as potent as Jesus.

I have apparently succeeded, at least partially, in transforming Jesus.

I could not defeat him, at least not permanently, but I have apparently changed his agenda.

Early on in my Initiation as a Shaman, he showed me a glyph to represent his Second Coming.  It was a Cross, with two crossbars, the top one slightly shorter than the lower – a Double Cross.  The cross of Succession.  One crossbar atop the first.

As I discovered his agenda, and realized my opposition to its success, I was at the same time expanding my powers of awareness through my own efforts at Shamanic Training, and the invaluable experiences of being of One Energy with my spirits, or Allies.  Actually being of the same energies as these beings has given me amazing insights into the nature of reality.

The ability to hold a world of many facets within the intelligence of my physical body / psyche, and the Medicine Energies of my apartment, requires an expansion of my spirit.  This was accomplished through years of hard work with my Allies; going to the edges of the physical universe, and to the dawn of time, and to multiple levels of reality of the world of the present moment (parallel universes), has expanded my awareness, and my ability to hold this expanded awareness in the time – space continuum of my physical body. 

With this expanded awareness, I have been able to track the changes in my Allies which resulted from my Despacho Ceremonies, my furies and rages, my Medicine Work, and other trial-and-error efforts to get rid of them.

As I was able to remove them from my energy field for longer periods of time, I was able to track the progression of signs as they re-entered my energies.  Each time was a little different.  And so I began to restructure my responses to their tactics, oddly enough, in ways which seemed to parallel the ‘teachings’ of the spiritual masters.  As I developed a stronger mesh of “Ayni” (right relationship) in my Medicine Energies, I found that the energies could support a gentler, more accommodating reaction to their return.

Without the Intent of my own spirit to be totally free from these intruders, the truisms of the new age teachers were merely hollow affirmations.  It was the indomitable desire to be Free that allowed me to overcome the will of my captors.  And as I began to overcome their will, their will began to change.

As noted in recent blogs, my spirits have become much more accommodating, and much less intrusive on my own energy field, and hence more and more welcomed by my own spirit.

So far, it seems that the will to freedom is the key.  But the key only works in a matrix of the Medicine Energies, and the expanded awareness of the Shaman.

My drawings are a vehicle for apprehending the changes in my world and my awareness.  Even though I might start a part of a drawing with a specific intent, my own lack of skill, and my penchant for the Surrealistic twist, gives each image the chance to become what it will, outside of or beyond my own understanding and intent.

This morning, while I was sort of ‘noodling’ at my drawing, at the coffee house, an interesting configuration appeared in one part of the drawing.  A tail feather had a sketched-in line which I unthinkingly doubled.  I had now two long vertical lines, side by side, which I joined near the top with a crossing line.  I now had a cross, with two uprights, which I saw was an interesting variation on Jesus’ Double Cross.

Two verticals indicated more than one Ascension, rather than one Ascension repeated.  In other words, no ‘return’; no Second Coming.  Rather, more than one Ascension.  More than one Jesus.  This fit nicely with my quest to develop the inherent qualities of the human energy field, in order to achieve things in each individual never conceived of in the Christian theology.

We can change the nature of the world we live in.  We don’t have to accept the current truths.  We can discover deeper realities in our own lives, in the world around us, and in a future which we can create from the energies we generate from our life-styles.

MY DAKINI RETURNS

My journey to the inner realms began in earnest in about 1964, I suppose.  It was about that time that I wandered into some of the bookstores in Seattle’s University District, where I was midway through my undergraduate ‘career’.  I found some books on Tantra.  I had known about and sort of practiced yoga for maybe half a dozen years.  I had decided long ago that Christianity was totally bankrupt and definitely not for me.  The Tantric logic intrigued me.  It seemed unassailable, indicating a depth and a centered approach to understanding the inscrutability of the psyche, which seemed to be the actual center of the world.

It took me years to gain the maturity to develop a real practice, once I had exhausted the indispensable magic of the LSD experience.  My poetry and the arts of Surrealism worked to develop an inner stability which manifested in the outer structuring of my lifestyle, which was centered on ‘get the poem!’.  The Chinese poets had figured out long ago that a simple life away from the ‘world’ was most conducive to the inner journey, and the Zen Masters had proven that many aspects of their practice had definite practical results.

Many years into the journey, I began to discover that the things I was practicing had just that same sort of results.  I did all these things, over the years, and they all actually worked!  I was transformed.  I entered the realm of the Spirits, and the spirits entered into incarnation in my physical body.  It was a psychic circus.

And then it began to fall apart.  I began to notice that twenty years had gone by with these two sharing my life, and I was not making the progress I needed to in order to complete what I began to see was my true mission.  I had been shanghaied into an agenda regarding the return of Jesus in the Second Coming.  It was a program concocted in the times before the Sphinx in Egypt, and was proving to be based on cosmic assumptions that were no longer valid.  I was in revolt.  I began to do whatever I could think of to rid myself of my hitch-hikers.

The Tantric aspect of my Shama, of course is central to the configuration of the energies which must be controlled in order to achieve the results of Mastery in this tradition.  The sexual energies are the core of our being, and of course, our being is the core of the world.  It’s all One, but the Self is the Center… Square Zero.

I must say, in spite of the difficulties I’ve encountered, that this journey I’ve undertaken is a totally fascinating experience.  If you like existential challenges, this is a wonderful path!  And it’s encouraging to know that these techniques, whichever ones you choose, actually work.

With this past New Moon, and the Despacho ‘Kooti’ Ceremony I performed at the Crescent, I seem to have achieved something especially significant.  With Jesus and Marilyn Monroe in my body, my Tantric practice was intimately tied up with them, either or both, at various times.  As their agenda began to prove itself to be bogus, this aspect of the relationship became very irritating.  My Tantric practice became a drag.

Part of what I had hoped to achieve with this cord-cutting ceremony was to ‘free up my sexuality’.  Neither of them was welcome any longer in my Tantra.

One of the delightful aspects of the practice of yoga is the Ayurvedic sequence of RDSE (Rest, Digestion, Sexual Energy).  After the morning meal, when the energies are freshest, it is a good idea to sit or lie down while the agni (digestive fires) do their work.  At a certain point, the Energy Body converts the digestive process into sexual energy, which is then available to me moved throughout the chakras via the Concentration Breath.  This brings a delightful vigor to the whole body, and to the psyche.  The sexual excitement is only a small part of this process, but is especially delicious, under the proper conditions.

Three days ago, the Ceremony had appeared to be a success, but I was wondering how I would actually assess the results.  Today, that question was answered.

As I lay on the yoga floor after breakfast, I went through the rituals of relaxations of the various parts of the body in Savasana (Corpse Pose).  At a certain point, the energies opened into a sort of movie screen, upon which images were being projected.  (I love the various ways of Seeing.  The ‘third eye’ is only one of many ways of perception, and the others are often spectacular.)

One of the things you have to get used to, in the inward journey, is going to places you might not find comfortable.  There are many aspects of the psyche, and its extensions into ‘paranormal space’, which are ‘necessary evils’, so to speak.  As I lay there, I was viewing the fly of a man’s trousers.  Behind the fly, the genitals became visible; then an image of fellatio.  At this image, the energies in my own genitals burst alive.  Soon a fire was flaming in the lower chakras, in all the colors of the inner spectrum.  I had never experienced this before. I caught the fire with my inner breathing, and the energies expanded to fill my abdomen, and expand the entire ‘frontal column’ of the chakras, the area where the Dakini resides when she visits.  The Dakini is the female sexual partner of the Tantrika.  She had been overshadowed by Jesus and Marilyn Monroe for a number of years.  Sex with the Dakini is a delicate, wonderful marvel.

Today the Dakini returned.  As I was experiencing the psychedelic colors of the male sexual energies throughout my entire body, in wave after wave, suddenly there was an opening, and another energy was visible.  It showed what seemed to be an almond-shaped opening, of lavender and magenta light, which immediately became the inner labia of a delicate vagina.  My entire energy field burst into penetration of this vagina, again something I had never experienced –a full-body Satori!

At this penetration, a number of images came to me.  It appeared that the male energy was an aspect of the God-figure Ganesha, the elephant.  It was his trunk that was curling upward along the frontal column of my energy body.  As I lay there in Corpse Pose, I became the “corpse Shiva”, the dead god, who is pictured with Shakti (the Goddess), or Kali, the dark one.  I also became Osiris, the dismembered God of ancient Egypt, one of my early Shamanic personas. 

As I’ve learned how things unfold in this world of Shamanic Reality, I can more easily understand the vastness of the inner dimensions.  I’m looking forward to the further unfolding of other aspects of the Ceremony, as this moon progresses toward Full Moon on the 29^th, just before Halloween!