MY DRAGON GETS WINGS

10.27.12 Saturday

So I’m in way over my head again.  Both Jesus and Marilyn Monroe are back with me.  I don’t really know if I ever expected that my Ceremony would rid me of MM.  But she did disappear for a while.  Yesterday she beeped the door chime on my truck; just once.  Even the door chime ding has a varied tonality when she beeps it!  Sometimes it’s clumsy and tenuous.  Sometimes it sends chills up my spine.  Sometimes it scares me, and sometimes it makes me furious.  Yesterday, it was so matter-of-fact, I just noted it and kept driving.  She didn’t appear in my dreams.  But all morning I could feel her presence.

I was watching UP with Chris Hayes on MSNBC early this morning, and switching to CBS during commercials.  There she was, all blonde and in bed with white sheets pulled up to her neck, looking divine.  While she was gone, she appeared in a credit card commercial as a work of art in a gallery, looking vapid and lost.  Even on TV she manages to communicate.  It was a real treat, in the early years of my Initiation as a Shaman, to watch her movies with her on the TV.  She would tell me things about what was going on.  She would manipulate her image to make her jaw look huge, or to make a long wrinkle of fat on her back.  Now I can’t stand to see her! 

One of the ways we learn to recognize the true nature of reality is when Spirit is present and active.  She unites various levels of reality, space and time and ‘mood’ because of the expanded and augmented nature of her divinity, --her Spirit, her Goddess Nature, her nature as an ALLY. 

On Tuesday, the 23^rd, I was doing yoga in the morning, and I could feel Jesus with me.  As I was doing a heart-opener with a Chi Mudra twist, he muttered deep within me, “I Die!”  Since then he has remained out of my consciousness.  The next day, the moon cycle shifted, and the rains came.  There is a feeling that comes with the rain, which connects it with the Moods of the Moon.  This rain has been a nasty rain.  Mostly a drizzle, it’s been dark, dank, and cold.  My teeth began to hurt.  This was my body relating to the energy drain from Jesus, deep within me.  Even my stool was affected.  The spirits eat it for its energy.  (Google Tlazolteotl, Goddess of Love and Excrement.  She was with me for a while in ’06.  She spoke through me by forcing my mouth into an extreme bucktooth configuration….  She is an aspect of Marilyn Monroe.)  Then I got a message from “Reynard”.

Reynard is the Werewolf Master of the Montana Flood region of Eastern Washington.  I first met him in Ellensburg.  He set the witches to attack me so as to drive me out of town, and I ended up here in Yakima.  Reynard is a red-head.  He showed up as the son of Frank, next door in apt. #3, early this summer, with a shit-load of trouble.  After a couple of Shamanic treatments on him and his Native girlfriend, things smoothed out and they found a house a few blocks away.  He helped me to see the ‘lines of force in the universe’ which would allow me to gain access to the spirit ‘handles’ on the un-evolved souls who inhabit this region.  There are many mythical and fairie folk who live in human form, but never migrate to the urban areas.  They are creatures of the earth, and have a very special energy vibe.  Meeting with them was one of the main reasons I was moved here to Yakima.  Their energies were certainly a shock to my system!

As the rains broke for a while, I was able to install a small shipping pallet I had scavenged from the hops warehouses on my way home from the coffee shop a few mornings ago.  It fit nicely at the alley edge of my compost heap.  So I was able to rake the three years of compost onto some cardboard, set in the pallet and bolster it with stones, and refill the space with my beautiful, fully transformed compost.  Truly a prize!  I love it when the vortexes tell me where to work in the yard.  I always start with the rake, and clean the area before I enter, and things flow smoothly from there.  Otherwise, they don’t flow at all.  The garden rake is the Shaman’s key to the earth, as the broom is the Witch’s key to flight.

My yoga dance with Jesus led to a vision of the male genitals, which was transferred to the new rattle I made to use with the chakra board.  As I gave myself a chakra treatment on Thursday, I was directed to sit in the Ting.  (“Ting” is the Chinese word for cauldron, the name of I Ching hexagram #50, the most favorable in the book.  It is the name I have given to the Buddha Vortex, after Buddha left with Jesus and Quetzalcoatl to become Xoxolotl, my Anaconda Nagual, Lord of the Underworld.)   As I sat there, I went into trance, and my genitals opened to send my DRAGON into the world.  He is no longer an Anaconda.  He has morphed into a dragon, and while I was being amazed at this vision, he sprouted his wings!  My genitals exploded, and I burst out in a ‘ROARRR’.

As I sat there, amazed, he told me his name is “TEOTL”  Nahuatl for “God”.  At the same time, I was getting a message from the yoga mat on the floor in front of the Ting.  It features a large black circle, or Bindu, center of the universe.  The bindu was fluctuating in a sort of Morse Code.  It was a way to alert me to the fact that I should time my Full Moon ceremony to the Dark Crescent, three days after Full.  And just at that moment, I repeated my Death Rattle.  While Teo was emerging from my yoni, I was giving off a powerful noise from deep in my throat, which registered in some part of my consciousness as my death rattle.

I don’t know what’s going to happen next.  The moon is Full in two days.  I’ve lost track of what I’m supposed to do for Ceremony.  As I did my recapitulation this morning, it was clear that I have a duty.  In my role as Quetzalcoatl, a title I received years ago during my Initiation as a Shaman, it is my duty to put an end to the present (Christian) era.  It may be that this is happening as Jesus becomes my Nagual.  Or that could be just another Spirit mirage.  It seems I will wait until I feel that burning rage which shapes itself into a white-hot fury, to burn through meteorites, and I will know what to do as I’m doing it, as usual.

MOVING WITH THE MOON

NEW MOON early this morning (10.15.12) was a big relief here in Yakima.  Our high sage climate, shielded from the weather by the Cascades, and far from the major weather systems of the rest of the country, has been very warm and dry much later into the season than is normal.  The UV in this dry climate was hard on my eyes, after cataract surgery two years ago, and my energy field was much more comfortable being indoors most of the time.  So I began to lose my physical conditioning.  The cooler weather lets me walk again, and the UV is down to 4, so I'm mostly comfortable.

But as a Shaman, I'm tuned to more energy systems than regular people, and it's difficult to discern them all, and to bring them into a balance which allows me to perform the tasks of daily life on top of the things I need to do as a Shaman.

I began my practice with techniques from the 'core shamanism' of Michael Harner, whose works spawned the many 'shamanic practitioners' who practice all over the globe these days, nearly 50 years after his work first came to my attention.  My Initiation as a Shaman took me away from his techniques, and transformed my energy field in ways unlike anyone else I'm aware of.  My universe is much more complicated than that of the ordinary practitioner.

One difference that I'm very much aware of is the years of work I did leading up to my contact with the Spirits in late 1990, when I was about 47 years old.  From my early 20s, I dedicated my life to study of transformational techniques.  It seemed practical to me to try to change my perceptual mechanisms by altering my personal consciousness.  LSD was a major influence, as it was with many in my generation.  Plant psychedelics changed my life.  Marijuana is a major asset in expanding the perceptual awareness of the body's energy field.  The marijuana deva unites with human consciousness as it flows throughout the body and auric energy field, and extends this awareness into the world at large.

Other Shamans use a wide variety of entheogenic plant helpers, but I was happy with LSD and marijuana.  One thing that distinguishes my work from others is the Surrealist project of Alchemical Transformation, which focuses on thwarting the natural ordering of awareness which shapes our use of language, and therefore limits us to perceptions easily within the range of the Ordinary State of Consciousness (OSC) described by Harner.  The Surrealists used automatic writing to actually alter the transmitting mechanisms of the language system, so that newer ways of understanding could develop.

This technique, combined with focus on dreams, helped me come into contact with my Muse, as a young poet.  This muse later manifested to me in the person of Marilyn Monroe, after I had broken through to actual contact with Spirit, using the divining rods.

The divining rods brought the actual energies of the spirits fully into my body.  I became One with my spirits, and they became One with me.  We became simultaneous incarnations, all of them within my own physical body.  This resulted in a level of physical apprehension of the universe not available any other way.  The use of entheogens allows one to enter a world of spirit in a powerful way, but it is very different from sharing the consciousness of Living Spirits in the OSC.

Through this sharing I am hooked up to the various influences I mentioned in the opening paragraphs.  These influences include the Medicine Energies, which are forces of planetary and nature consciousness which exist all around us, but are only brought into a unified field of awareness through the actions of the Shaman.  This is the world I live in, in my little apartment and the bits of land around it.

Early in my career as a poet, I was influenced by the philosophies of the Eastern religions, and the poets who practiced these philosophies.  Simplicity of life allows the spirit to flow and expand, as opposed to the compression of the spirit resulting from the hectic pace of the consumerist lifestyle.  Without this simplicity, I would be dragged through life unaware of the forces around me.  Without the training of psychedelics, Surrealism and poetry, (and YOGA!) I wouldn't have the perceptive abilities I have now.

Lots of free time, and a trained, expanded awareness are essential to the true spirit lifestyle!

By training the Energy Field Awareness to follow the changes of the moon, it is possible to begin to detach from the pull of daily consciousness and to remove oneself from the grasp of the hands of the clock.  Since I'm not off at work all day, I can follow the moon.

In the I Ching, rain is seen as the coming together of the yin and the yang forces of the atmosphere, which have their own 'moods', just as the moon does.  These moods of the atmosphere are greatly conditioned by the lunar flux, just as the tides are.

In our daily lives, we have moods as well.  Training our awareness to the flux of the moon, cycle after cycle, season after season, year after year, allows for a gradual synchronization of our moods with the moods of the outer world.  (Marijuana is a very great assistant in this process!)

So I've been trying to bring the art of Ceremony into my life, as a means of organizing the various flows which move through the tattwas of my days, and bring the appropriate influences to bear at an exact time, to achieve a certain aim in the spiritual realm or in the physical world.  I'm only a few moon-cycles into this practice, and there are many tools which I'm discovering I need to invent in order to harness various aspects of the energies I'm trying to work with.  All this takes time and work, and I find myself missing the moment, with the performance of the Ceremony itself.  This Moon, I realized something that had come to my attention a few weeks ago, at a Full Moon.  I don't have to tie my Ceremony to the moon phase!  In fact, there is actually too much going on in the various energy aspects of my life at the turn of the moon, to allow for Ceremony of this type.  Other shamans don't have this problem, due to the nature of their practice.

Today, as the moon gradually moved off the exact moment of conjunction with the sun early this morning, and as I went through the work that needed to get done in the day, I watched the bright sunshine of the morning hours gradually give way to a slight overcast.  I was in my normal New Moon droop.  My energies are verrrrrrry low during New Moon; or they can be more active, depending.....  I had my mind on trying to bring the Ceremony to a stage where I could work toward completion, but finally realized that wasn't going to happen.  So I let that go, and returned to focus on my own condition, so that I could get my energies cleared up.

I sat in my vortex, and began my forward bend technique of moving my energies, and noticed a deep feeling of despair, of emptiness, of being unfulfilled, alone, and powerless.  As I moved my energies around in my body, it occurred to me to just let go.  Let everything drop.  Go with it.   What was I clinging to?  As I let it go, I began to sing.  I felt better.  I reached for my little tom-tom.

As I drummed, my energies finally began to focus.  I could pull my energies up from my root chakra, and bring them into my singing and my drumming.  I felt better.  I picked up my larger hoop drum, and began to work it.  Right away, the drum took me to a place of Power.  I had hit on something.  I was able to focus of the issues I had been trying to deal with through Ceremony.  This seemed much more direct.

I drummed and sang myself into a state of Power.  I was able to bring all the aspects of my situation into focus, and issue a Prayer, an Intention, regarding the issues.  It all came out in song and drumbeats, very strongly, in perfect resolution.  It had all come together.

The drumming came to a conclusion, and I got up.  I looked outside.  It had begun to rain, hard.

This is the kind of thing referred to in the I Ching as bringing the rain.  This happens as a result of a certain kind of lifestyle dedicated to Consciousness, Awareness, and Spirit.  By living a life which allows me to be aware of the 'changes' (the I Ching, or Book of Changes), and to move with them, I have, over the years, been able to become a Shaman, and am able to deal with the special horrors which beset one of such a persuasion, as well as perform the duties of my normal life, few though they be.

During which time, I have observed that many of the maladies which beset people who are chained to the OSC (Ordinary State of Consciousness), can be resolved by changes in lifestyle which result in changes in Consciousness, which enables normal people to live lives of health and well-being.

AUTUMN RITUCHARYA TRUMPS THE MOON

It's all a matter of timing...  Starting a group to observe the moods of the moon just at the change into Autumn!  The sun, as we all are aware, certainly trumps the moon at these times.  While the moon has been very influential in my Shamanic work recently, I've been so totally absorbed in the ritucharya of the equinox that I've not been able to blog the moon.

I'll just say now how important I've realized it is to live in a community of like-minded souls.  It's too much for a single individual to track and record the many aspects of Shamanic life, while at the same time being fully engaged in the practice, which is both active and re-active!

I've been working on developing a place to house my burgeoning collection of containers with everything from roses to peppers in them, as well as my beloved geraniums, to get them through the winter.  And finding a way to get a doghouse of sorts for the wild dog who has adopted this apartment as his safe haven.

I mentioned the Ayurvedic term 'ritucharya', which denotes the chores specific to the seasons, as marked in two-month intervals.  The corresponding term, 'dinacharya' refers to the daily chores and practices necessary to support a yoga practice.  Ayurveda translates to 'life science'.  While the phases of the moon are a subtle mode of access to the outer world, ayurveda provides a remarkable and novel way to access subtle systems in the inner world of the body as it is affected by yoga.  This is a very complex science, developed over thousands of years, and views the energies of the body in very different ways from Western science.  I think ayurveda is extremely important, as is a reasonable yoga practice, in order to sustain the subtle and gross anatomies over the many decades of spiritual engagement.  Within the body are systems which interface in wonderful ways with the energies of the outer world.  These energies are the Medicine Energies.

Observation of the lunar energies is a convenient first practice to open the awareness to other avenues of subtle realizations which can be very helpful in avoiding the disasters of modern 'medicine' as it wreaks havoc on the aura and other subtle energy systems of the body, psyche, mind and spirit.

More later...  --soon!
Namaste, Shaman :Dagaji